Families 4 Life

2008: CTS/TURBINE

2008-07-10T05:09:00.000-07:00

A turbine was too small. The exhaust pipe was too big. Imagine a small little turbine trying to blow through a gigantic pipe..... Apart from that, the driver shifts into 5th gear, let go of the clutch immediately and step the paddle. Thus, the car died.

In the end, the turbine blew up and the exhaust was forced to be taken out due to the lack in size......

P/S: The driver's CTS sucks balls

Great love

2006-09-30T23:40:00.000-07:00

I've always dreamed of doing things like this but i never do and dunno if i ever will but if everyone was like that everyone would get along better in our world today. The man in the video 'Juan Mann' has touched the hearts of many and gave hope to people in humanity through his actions. This is exactly what Jesus would do. . .

Quotes of the Heart

2006-09-15T23:09:00.000-07:00

Love is the best medicine, and there is more than enough to go around once you open your heart.

Hidden Power of the HeartYou'll discover that real love is millions of miles past falling in love with anyone or anything. When you make that one effort to feel compassion instead of blame or self-blame, the heart opens again and continues opening.

Our true identity is to love without fear and insecurity. Our higher potential finds us when we set our course in that direction. The power of love and compassion transforms insecurity.

Love the heart that hurts you, but never hurt the heart that loves you.

The Hidden Power of the HeartEnthusiasm created from the heart is the spirit of the matter. It ignites your whole system so there's no drag, no resistance, no thoughts like "Do I have to?" coming from the head to sabotage the power of your surrender.

Love is not automatic. It takes conscious practice and awareness, just like playing the piano or golf. However, you have ample opportunities to practice. Everyone you meet can be your practice session.

True love does not come by finding the perfect person, but by learning to see an imperfect person perfectly.

Grief and tragedy and hatred are only for a time. Goodness, remembrance and love have no end.

If you love something, set it free. If it comes back, it was, and always will be yours. If it never returns, it was never yours to begin with.

True love never lives happily ever after - true love has no ending.

Love fails, only when we fail to love.

To fall in love is easy, even to remain in it is not difficult; our human loneliness is cause enough. But it is a hard quest worth making to find a comrade through whose steady presence one becomes steadily the person one desires to be.

Never let a problem to be solved become more important than a person to be loved

Love is like pi — natural, irrational, and VERY important

In dreams and in love there are no impossibilities

People who are sensible about love are incapable of it.

To love and win is the best thing. To love and lose, the next best.

A Prayer for help

2006-09-12T06:07:00.000-07:00

I pray to you Lord, I beg for mercy,
I tell you all of my worries and my troubles,
and whenever i feel low, you are there to guide me.

A trap has been hidden along my pathway.
Even if you look, you won't see anyone
who cares enough to walk beside me.
There is no place to hide, and no one who really cares.

I pray to you Lord! You are my place of safety,
and you are my choice in the land of the living.
Please answer my prayer. I am completely helpless.

Help! They are chasing me, and they are too strong.
Rescue me from this prison, so I can praise your name.
And when your people notice
your wonderful kindness to me,
they will rush to my side.

How do I speak of the indescribable to You

I will try to explain these feelings that are true

All of the words in all of my life that could never explain and never describe

All of my love, which is nothing to hide so I lift up my hands and I worship

By Your grace You let me come talk to You

It's not that I'm worthy I thank you Jesus

For the love that You have shown

- Kutless -

I Love You

2006-07-27T23:54:00.000-07:00

I cannot promise you that,

i will not have

many different moods,

i will not hurt you sometimes

i will always be strong

my faults will not show

But~

i do promise you that

i will share all my thoughts

and feelings with you,

i will try to understand everything

that you do,

i will be completely

honest with you,

i will laugh and cry with you,

i will try to help you achieve

all your goals,

But~ most of all

i promise you that

I LOVE YOU

forever and ever

MONASH

2006-07-20T18:51:00.000-07:00

its just a name. uni life is tough. just my first week and assignments already. . due about 3 weeks from now, 2000 words essay for each subjects . .taking 4 subs. the lecturers are ok but there is the accounting one. . he only supports accounting, economic and finance majors. . the rest he just tell u in ur face it sucks and its unless. don't waaste ur time. ..damn guy. .makes me confused with my majors now. . .he's got more than 3 companies outside, 4 degrees, ACCA, 1 masters and 1 phd . . 30+ guy. . .damn ass. ..

"Where'd You Go?"

2006-07-10T22:27:00.000-07:00

ps: this song does not relate to hairloss. . .

it's about the life's of people. . .broken families. .homes and all . .
spend time with those you love. .make them your priority, appreciate them. . .you won't really know what they mean to you till you loose them. .
Families 4 Life yo. . .

-FORT MINOR -

"Where'd You Go?"

Where'd you go?I miss you so,

Seems like it's been forever,

That you've been gone.

She said "Some days I feel like shit,

Some days I wanna quit,

and just be normal for a bit,

"I don't understand why you have to always be gone,

I get along but the trips always feel so long,

And, I find myself trying to stay by the phone,

'Cause your voice always helps me to not feel so alone,

But I feel like an idiot, workin' my day around the call,

But when I pick up I don't have much to say,

So, I want you to know it's a little fucked up,

That I'm stuck here waitin', at times debatin',

Tellin' you that I've had it with you and your career,

Me and the rest of the family here singing "Where'd you go?"

I miss you so,

Seems like it's been forever,

That you've been gone.

Where'd you go?

I miss you so,

Seems like it's been forever,

That you've been gone,

Please come back home...

You know the place where you used to live,

Used to barbecue up burgers and ribs,

Used to have a little party every Halloween with candy by the pile,

But now, you only stop by every once and a while,

Shit, I find myself just fillin' my time,

With anything to keep the thought of you from my mind,

I'm doin' fine, I plan to keep it that way,

You can call me if you find that you have something to say,

And I'll tell you, I want you to know it's a little fucked up,

That I'm stuck here waitin', at times debatin',

Tellin' you that I've had it with you and your career,

Me and the rest of the family here singing "Where'd you go?"

I miss you so,

Seems like it's been forever,

That you've been gone.Where'd you go?

I miss you so,

Seems like it's been forever,

That you've been gone,

Please come back home...

I want you to know it's a little fucked up,

That I'm stuck here waitin',

no longer debatin',

Tired of sittin' and hatin' and makin' these excuses,

For why you're not around,

and feeling so useless,

It seems one thing has been true all along,

You don't really know what you've got 'til it's gone,

I guess I've had it with you and your career,

When you come back I won't be here and you can sing it...Where'd you go?

I miss you so,

Seems like it's been forever,

That you've been gone.

Where'd you go?

I miss you so,

Seems like it's been forever,

That you've been gone,

Please come back home...

What is Love?

2006-07-10T22:24:00.001-07:00

Ha ha ha. . .don't worry. .nothing happen to me. . .

The true meaning of love, as defined in the Bible, has been corrupted in the common usage of our English language and society. Most often, love is confused with infatuation - that elated, "high" feeling we get when we "fall in love." This kind of "love" is something that lasts typically less than a year, and unless replaced by true love, results in broken relationships.

This is a description of apage love. It is described as being patient, kind, truthful, unselfish, trusting, believing, hopeful, and enduring. It is not jealous, boastful, arrogant, rude, selfish, or angry. True love never fails. The description perfectly fits God's love toward us, and should be the way we love each other and God. However, I have never met any person who perfectly fulfills this biblical definition of love. The Bible says that this unconditional love is more important than everything else (a partial list includes oratory ability, prophecy, knowledge, faith, philanthropy and hope). All of these things, which are "good" things, will pass away. Only love is eternal, since love will be the basis of eternal life. In fact, when Jesus was asked what the greatest commandment was, He said,"YOU SHALL LOVE THE LORD YOUR GOD WITH ALL YOUR HEART, AND WITH ALL YOUR SOUL, AND WITH ALL YOUR MIND." (Matthew 22:37)9 He then added that the second most important law was "YOU SHALL LOVE YOUR NEIGHBOR AS YOURSELF." Jesus said that the entire law was dependent upon these two commandments.9

If you are not a Christian, I hope you desire to express love as defined in the Bible. However, wanting to do so and attempting to do so in the power of your own will is guaranteed to fail. This kind of love is only possible through relying on the power of God, through faith in Jesus Christ. Even if you are a Christian, you will not succeed if you do not abide in Christ. May the Lord direct your hearts into the love of God and into the steadfastness of Christ.10

Whoever does not love does not know God, because God is love. (1 John 4:8)

What is Love?

2006-07-10T22:24:00.000-07:00

Wise men - james blunt

2006-07-10T22:18:00.000-07:00

She said to me, "Go steady on me.

Won't you tell me what the Wise Men said?

When they came down from Heaven,

Smoked nine 'til seven,

All the shit that they could find,

But they couldn't escape from you,

Couldn't be free of you,

And now they know there's no way out,

And they're really sorry now for what they've done,

They were three Wise Men just trying to have some fun.

Look who's alone now,

It's not me. It's not me.

Those three Wise Men,

They've got a semi by the sea.

Got to ask yourself the question,

Where are you now?

Really sorry now,

They weren't to know.

They got caught up in your talent show,

With you pernickety little bastards in your fancy dress,

Who just judge each other and try to impress,

But they couldn't escape from you,

Couldn't be free of you,

And now they know there's no way out,

And they're really sorry now for what they've done,

They were three Wise Men just trying to have some fun.

Look who's alone now,

It's not me. It's not me.

Those three Wise Men,

They've got a semi by the sea.

Got to ask yourself the question,

Where are you now?

Time flies

2006-07-10T08:51:00.000-07:00

time flies when you're having fun.

Me and My Bi Bi, playing puzzles, walk through the park, going place together . . .My peace, my happiness, my all. .

swimming with Hu Ko, champion of the kiddy's pool

Chilling with Sua Tu Ong. . .as the sua tu pathens for the sua pa

Carrying drunk people. . .JKR terus

BURN

2006-07-10T08:24:00.000-07:00

ok. . .sorry for the long period of absence. . . .somehow i forgot how to attach files so the project's a fail. . .burn. ..

The Poverty Project

2006-05-15T08:27:00.000-07:00

my finals start this friday 19th of may- 30th of may. . .busy but got to write something. . .i was sitting in my room then while listening to a song i thought about life. . .seems i don't even realise that i'm lost. . . i did. . .i'm ashamed to call myself a christian. . .

i was thinking about me and those who think that they are in the same boat. .

We are suppose to be the Body of Christ but if we are the body, why aren't His arm's reaching, why aren't His hands healing, Why aren't His word's teaching, why aren't His feet Going . .
We have become stale. . . forgetting why we are here and who we are and the Purpose

What have we become?

This has inspired me to start something small. . .i'm planning to spread a screensaver about poverty to show people what's happening although they might know already. . .its the least i can do. . .wanna see how far this goes. . .

God Bless

-J-

Studies

2006-03-29T21:11:00.000-08:00

MUST work hard till the end of may or i'll be dead

Finals coming soon, Middle of MAY ! ! !

got to study, no time to sleep

assignments. . . .

I work so hard to get in to MONASH but when i'm in i wanna get out

How does this work? no idea

damn 3 years for a sheet of paper (degree)

hahahaa. . . . . .

Hahahaha. . just needed a break

hmmm. . . .

Studying a pile of books bigger than your head when it's stacked up together is never easy. . . .

Stupid thought's

2006-03-29T20:25:00.000-08:00

just a few things i've been thinking bout

some people say time=money,
other's say that money is just paper
but that doesn't mean time=paper
just a stupid thought . . . . . .

Decided to try something different today. . .

I should know who I am by now
Your name is the splinter inside me
I could have lost myself
In rough blue waters in your eyes
I miss you

I can't get to sleep
I think about the implications
Of diving in too deep
And possibly the complications
Especially at night
I worry over situations
I know will be alright
Perhaps its just my imagination
Day after day it reappears
Night after night my heartbeat, shows the fear
Ghosts appear and fade away

My favourite song of all time,

Iris

And I'd give up forever to touch you
Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't want to go home right now

And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
Cause sooner or later it's over
I just don't want to miss you tonight

And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything seems like the movies
Yeah you bleed just to know your alive

-Goo goo dolls-

Goodbye my lover.

2006-01-15T19:16:00.000-08:00

Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your head.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.
I am a dreamer but when I wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the father of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bear my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one for me.
I'm so hollow.

Fu*king PIssed

2006-01-11T17:39:00.000-08:00

I need a place to stay. . . .

out of desperation i decided to approach the guard and ask him to find me a place in the condo, apparently everyone ones to stay there since it is near college plus its cheaper compared to other places and great to live in.

i offered the guard money,

you know what?

he asked me to go away. . .

i can't believe it. . .

damn pissed. .

I gave him "The Finger" and walked away in a calm but pissed manner. . .

i'm still pissed

Damn guard

Back to reality

2006-01-03T21:09:00.000-08:00

sorry long the long period of silence
just got back from kuching. . Home. . . .
so sad

on the 3rd day back at kuching we went to santubong
what a great experience, as Attan would say "Bagus. . "
male bonding, gay. . . but seriously
i was sleeping at the edge of the bed when Attan got nearer and now thanx to him
we're called ASS RUBBERS
damn guy
middle of the night we decided to jump into the pool
Attan jump first pulling me in
again with the damn guy, one day he's gonna kill me
a lense of his glasses was missing and we had to move around in the pool using the
"crab maneuver"
Attan was about to burst into tears
after about 15 mins(felt like it in the bloody cold water) we found his glasses
i had saw the poor boys need and saved his ass, hahahaa
that was the climax of the night,
other events that took place are censored to others not members of the great expedition

on christmas i got a card from Vina and cookies from Jess, thanx, Jess' cookies smells and tastes like famous amos, EXCELLENT . . . .
thats about all the presents i got, sorry if i left anyone out

To Be Continued. . . . .

Genesis

2005-11-18T11:01:00.000-08:00

The story has ended,
and a new chapter begins,

i quote from - U2

"You've got to get yourself together

You've got stuck in a moment and now you can't get out of it

Don't say that later will be better now you're stuck in a moment

And you can't get out of it"

Gathering all my pieces in life and do something and not get stuck in the moment.
i got 2 months left before i have to find a new place to stay,
I decided to do something and i will do it,
by July next year i will finish reading the Bible and understand it or i would have failed.
I Just bought a new guitar and hopefully i will compose my own songs and perform them someday, got inspired my my sisters. . .

I wish the way I was living could stop,
Wish that my grandfather wasn't sick,
Wish my homies wouldn't have to suffer,
Wish I could go deep in a zone,
And lift the spirits of the world with the words with in a song,
Wish God never gave the men power To be able to hurt the people inside the Twin Towers,
And I Wish God woulda turned they hearts righteous,
And we gotta pray, all we got is faith.
Instead of thinking about who gonna die to day,
The Lord is gonna help you feel better, so you ain't gotta cry today.
Just say a little prayer, get ya money man, life go on
And in the famous words of Mr. King "Why can't we all just get along",
I Wish everybody would just stop and freeze,
And ask way are we fulfillin these downfalls and prophecies,
You can be wrong if it's you doubting,
With the faith of a mustard seed you can move mountains,
And only the heavenly father and ease the hurt,
Just let it go and keep prayin on your knees in church!!

You're beautiful

2005-11-15T03:29:00.000-08:00

My life is briliant.
My love is pure.
I saw an angel.
She smiled at me on the subway.
She was with another man.
But I won't lose no sleep on that,
'Cause I've got a plan.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw your face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you.
Yeah, she caught my eye,
As we walked on by.
She could see from my face that I was, Fucking high.
And I don't think that I'll see her again,
But we shared a moment that will last till the end.
There must be an angel with a smile on her face,
When she thought up that I should be with you.
But it's time to face the truth,
I will never be with you.

Too many

2005-11-13T02:19:00.000-08:00

OK, this is too much, i'm posting 3 posts at once, hhahaha, sorry la, just making up for the long period of not updating, the thursday before, the last day on MUFY(Monash Universtiy Foundation Year) for my team, the final exam was over, now i won't see them anymore in college . . . Boo hoo.. . . now its only me, damn this new team, everyone think's they're better than everyone else, my team this time is damn snobish but has a variety of people, English, Japanese, Korean, Africans, Chinese and Egyptians( that was long) . so whats my accoplishments so far? i've improved academically, achieved a further stage in my personal growth and my "sisters" told me that a some girls were talking bout the cutest guy in the course, his name is Jason Kong and he's studying business, hahahaha, what do i care. Fun to know though, after all what are the benefits of having "sisters"? i'm grateful to have them and my great friends too who help me with my assignments and stuff, i'm really going to miss them, i will dedicate a blog to them soon. Peace Out

Some pics

2005-11-13T02:01:00.000-08:00

More pics next time, wish i did have a camera so that life could be easier

This pic was taken bout 5 months ago , same gang again
Not so recent pic of , from the left (Cecelia, Corina, Kai yen, Roger and Me) family dinner. bout 7 months ago, long old story

A purpose

2005-11-13T01:53:00.000-08:00

my old blog is dead and will be dead till someday when i decide to do something fun with it or this company decides to close it down. hahahaha. Any ways, regulator visitors of this blog, thanx for visiting and all, i do try to update as frequently as possible but its hard to keep the consistancy due to the lack of technology and time, college pc restricts and bloging, posting, and other wierd stuff throught the admin. anyways, the purpose for this blog is to keep everyone updated on whats happening to me, around me and . . . (you get the idea) its hard to keep it contact sometimes due to distance and certain restrictions, physical, fiscal and unknown weather conditions( last one's a lame joke). this may be sad but its one way to keep it touch with you. Peace out Homies

Update on life

2005-10-18T11:14:00.000-07:00

Had a week of holiday last week
went up to perak with "My Family" Roger, Cecelia and Corina, Kai yen couldn't come because she had to go back to kuching unexpectedly.
We rented a house on the mountain top
it only cost about rm 60 for the whole house for a night
it was cold, about 14 c, above the clouds, mist was every where, line of sight was limited
had a barbeque, the thing that sucked was it rained,
the fire i built died but luckily not before we ate.
the house was creepy, just like the houses in horror movies,
there were rooms bolted up to keep them restricted to people,
the place was haunted we were told, the ghosts were constricted to those rooms, WIERD
i was amazed by the skills of the drivers who drove the 4x4's up those mountains
trip was about 30 mins, 12km up of about 50 to 60 dergees, nearly fell of the mountain btw, hahahaha, but seriously.
the ride was like in "Medal of honor" it was like one of those old WWII 4x4's
awsome trip.
have exams next week, got to keep up my good work
another week of holiday again after that.
where to go next?
maybe some deserted island, i love an adventure

Our Lady Peace - Somewhere out there

2005-10-18T10:42:00.000-07:00

Hope you remember me
When you're home sick and need a change
I miss your purple hair
I miss the way you taste
I know you'll come back some day
On a bed of nails I wait
I'm praying that you don't burn out or fade away
And all we are
Is all so far
You're falling back to me
The star that I can see
I know your out there, somewhere out there
You're falling out of reach
Defying gravity
I know you're out there, somewhere out there

Richness

2005-10-09T12:47:00.000-07:00

Today was someone's 17th birthday. An indonesian girl from my class was giving out invitation cards inviting everyone she knew to her 17th birthday party. This party will be at the "Times Square" ballroom, this ain't cheap dude. . . this all costs a bomb. guess what? she's got a Lamborghini-Murcielago. its not everyday you see a car like this. That chick is way loaded.
btw, i ain't goin to the party.

Sorry & Thanx

2005-10-06T23:14:00.000-07:00

Sorry for the long blog updating process, i've been busy with exams and stuff, also by the limitations of internet access. Thanx Lyn, Ting, Lorr & whoever has kept my old blog as a link even though it was never updated. That one has become obsolute.